A friend of mine suggested I socialize beyond SL.
She suggested Facebook.
I had some friends in SL. Married couple. Very supportive.
They were the first I risked to contact in Facebook. Welcomed me quite warmly.
At the same time, I’m running though anime and /b/tard groups, friending people until my ability to offer friendship is blocked by admin.
Some of the friendships accepted were kid profiles or people with kid pictures in their profiles.
Now I’m being told “Don’t contact us again”.
I deleted my account.
Yet another failure of me being me beyond my place.
Unfit.
Good people despize me.
I’m halting my attempts at real world contacts and going back to what I was before.
I’m safe here.
This is my place.
I deserve this.
Nah!
It is just hard to have friends among both the normals and the outsiders.
You should know that better than most. :)
But you shouldn’t assume it’s your fault; it’s just The Way The World Is.
“Normal” isn’t the same as “good”. There are good and bad people among both the normals and the outsiders. The outsiders make normals very nervous. (And vice-versa.) No one with any sense despises you; they just flinch instinctively away from the other camp.
It is hard to live in both worlds at once; if you wanna do that, you hafta learn how not to take this kinda thing personally…
(Also you always jump in to everything with both feet. “until my ability to offer friendship is blocked by admin” indeed, lol. Traveling twice the speed of sound, it’s easy to get burned!)
Please understand when I call these people good. I continue to respect and admire them. It’s a matter of my own ignorance and pressure from a friend who wanted to help me widen my social circle. As a result I believe I have become a monster in their eyes. They saw what they saw in their own context and reacted in the way they considered best. I can only fault myself in the matter. So please suspend any judgment of their character.
Yeah, def; I wasn’t judging them as not-good. They were, as you say, just reacting predictably to some stuff they are not used to. But similarly, the only negative thing it means about you is that sometimes you move too fast ’cause you are enthusiastic. :) It doesn’t mean you’re not-good, either, or that all good people despise you…