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<\/p>\nI was thinking about naming names and going down a list but, moments after I typed out the title I kind of realized that my relationship with each is pretty much the same battle.\u00a0 So, instead, I’ll do it in one message starting with:<\/p>\n
To [You know who you are] (^_^)\u00a0 (( << See what I did there? =^-^= ))<\/p>\n
I don’t actually have any problem with you, as a person.\u00a0 I don’t dislike you.\u00a0 I don’t wish harm upon you.\u00a0 And, while I do enjoy the times I see you get your comeuppance, I get no pleasure in watching you suffer. (^_^)<\/p>\n
At the same time, I have a HUGE problem with your opinion of me.\u00a0 Particularly because you like to treat it like fact.\u00a0 You try to think you know me, without addressing me directly.\u00a0 You assume the worst of me while I just sit here, head tilted, eyebrow raised, and wondering ‘WTF?’. (O.o)<\/p>\n
Get this: I’m as human as you are.\u00a0 If you were to shut the hell up over your skewed opinion of me, I’m sure we’d find we have quite a bit in common and that we might actually get along quite well.\u00a0 Consider the other people that get along with me.\u00a0 Can you really fault them?\u00a0 Can you really say that they have marginalized their grasp on humanity so much that they’ve turned to associating with this beast of your fantasies?\u00a0 They’re your friends too, you know.\u00a0 (=_=)<\/p>\n
Get this: I don’t hate you.\u00a0 Or, moreso, I don’t hate.\u00a0 Okay, sure, I’ve been guilty of a f**kton of self hatred (why am I censoring myself on my own blog?), but, I’ve pretty much documented and publicized the beginning of my mental recovery.\u00a0 In my current state, I’m feeling pretty good.\u00a0 I’m creative again, my moods are far more stable, times now are pretty good.\u00a0 Oh, but, I’ve digressed… This is about you… [reset] I really don’t hate.\u00a0 If I’m in social combat with you, it’s over your words, not you.\u00a0 I appreciate you.\u00a0 I would never have problem sharing a conversation with you.\u00a0 But, that’s just it.\u00a0 Sharing.\u00a0 I won’t feed off your negative monologues.\u00a0 I won’t cave in to your vilification.\u00a0 And, when you say something that I believe to be untrue, I’ll surely call you on it. (^_^)<\/p>\n
Get this: You’re only hurting yourself.\u00a0 The stress, anger, worry, and fear is all on you.\u00a0 It wears away at your psyche.\u00a0 At the same time, expressing your disdain about me may impress your hand selected sycophants, but, the remainder of the population simply see you as being very foolish.\u00a0 And, your foolishness has not gone un-punished.\u00a0 I’ve watched you get suspended, ejected, shunned, shot down, and cornfielded.\u00a0 I haven’t been the cause of it.\u00a0 I’m just sitting here wondering WTF is going on and why you can’t just relax, live, and let live. (-_-)<\/p>\n
Get this: I’m not your self-hating sucker anymore.\u00a0 Therapy, counseling, and Wellbutrin have all helped me adjust my way of thinking.\u00a0 I have a far healthier view of myself.\u00a0 I realize that I have friends because I’m a good person.\u00a0 People protect me from harassment because they see redeeming features in me.\u00a0 People buy my stuff, ask for advice, and ask for help because they value my creativity, knowledge, and resourcefulness.\u00a0 If you asked me to say these things 6 months ago, I would have flipped out and fallen into a spiral of denial.\u00a0 Well, screw that.\u00a0 I’m getting the help I need to repair myself and going through with it.\u00a0 And, I’m feeling pretty darned good about my progress so far. (^_^)<\/p>\n
Get this: I don’t need you.\u00a0 While it does trouble me that you have such an intensely bitter view of who\/what I am, I’m not going to allow that to define me.\u00a0 I am myself.\u00a0 I am my “self”.\u00a0 Your opinion of me is your problem and yours alone.\u00a0 And, yes, it is a problem.\u00a0 If you don’t think so, you’re suffering from the same level of denial I have been for probably the past 15 years. (>_<)<\/p>\n
Get this: I trust.\u00a0 Simple, no?\u00a0 Everyone gets a chance with me.\u00a0 But, burn me and expect to get burned back.\u00a0 I have been friends with a lot of people.\u00a0 Each and every one of them has been good to me.\u00a0 What they do with their own life and liberty is their business.\u00a0 Who I choose to spend my time with and associate with is my determined choice for my own reasons alone. (^_^)<\/p>\n
Get this: I’m actually rather shy.\u00a0 Did you know that I almost never introduce myself to anyone?\u00a0 Did you know that I almost never request friendship?\u00a0 Did you know that practically everyone I have associated with came to me?\u00a0 I’m not a ‘people seeker’.\u00a0 In regards to my friends who may be trouble makers, I’m not a pandering crony to them.\u00a0 In regards to my friends who exceedingly upstanding, I’m not trying to reverse-osmosis any reputation from them.\u00a0 Again, they came to me.\u00a0 Or, they simply happened upon me.\u00a0 Such is fate and random chance. (^_^)<\/p>\n
So… Get over it.\u00a0 I’m doing so.\u00a0 It’s not my fault you behave like a wretchedly bitter prick.\u00a0 I can’t change you.\u00a0 And, if you’re not willing to change, that’s no skin off my back.\u00a0 I got mine and I don’t need you. (^_^)<\/p>\n
Hugs and love, from Frigg’n Immy. (^_^)y<\/p>\n
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(( Heh… I’m at work right now.\u00a0 Maybe I should do some! =^-^= ))<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
I was thinking about naming names and going down a list but, moments after I typed out the title I kind of realized that my relationship with each is pretty much the same battle.\u00a0 So, instead, I’ll do it in … Continue reading